Support.

I have been posting more negative feelings. But I do want to put some positivity out there.

Your support system is the most important thing while struggling with this disease.

I want to talk about Bethany.

I met Bethany in my first stint of PHP/IOP. She has been dealt a shitty hand in life, she has awful people around her, she is a single mom, despite the life she has, she is the most caring, loving, funny person I have ever met. I have known her such a short time in comparison to other friends and family, but I have never felt support and love from someone like I have from her. Bethany texts me every night to ask if I have nourished my body. She supports me, encourages me, understands me. She understands me like no one else has. I honestly don’t know what I would do with out her.

Next, we have Liza.

Liza has this dry sense of humor that not everyone will get. But she is so funny. She is also a supportive, caring, loving person. We don’t talk as much, but I think she would be there for me at any time if I needed to talk or support.

Madison.

Madison was the there my first day of PHP. My first day was like an out of body experience (future post about this to come). In treatment, your meal plan starts out small and you build up to more. If you don’t finish your meal, you are “offered” a supplement called boost. I completed my breakfast and lunch my first day, but dinner I couldn’t. I was “offered” a boost and cried my eyes out over it. I couldn’t do it. Madison stayed with me the entire time and encouraged me. She was ending her time in PHP and showed me the importance of support and staying with your peers if they need to boost. You don’t want to do it alone. She eventually taught me the trick to chugging a boost to the song “Bottoms Up”

These three are so important to me. We had fun. We joked, laughed, twerked, slid in our socks, played games at meals, gave the staff hell. We needed to have the fun while we talked about some deep shit. I love them all and everyone else I have met through he process. There are good people in the world, and there people who understand the struggle. Most people in your life won't get it, but they really do.